Neverending Fantasy: A Final Fantasy Replay Journal Part 1

The cover image of Final Fantasy on the Nintendo Entertainment System.

I don’t think I’ve taken enough advantage of one aspect of tenure, which is that I can now write about some of my interests without worry about whether it will turn off a job committee. One of these is my life-long love of video games and I hope to use this space to write a bit more about them (and some other culture I love). Indeed, I have a few long-term projects ongoing, one of which is to very very slowly read all the Hugo Award winners (even those written by bad people). I’ve recently opened a StoryGraph account and have added my remaining Hugo books to my “to-read” shelf.

A new project is to slowly play or replay all of the Final Fantasy games through the PS3-era now that I’ve purchased the Pixel Remaster versions. I may skip Mystic Quest (which I feel like would just be a slog without a remake available), 7 (which I replayed shortly before Remake was released), 11 (just can’t see myself playing an aging MMO), and 12 (which I replayed when the Zodiac Age was released), but I will plan on posting some thoughts when I get to those. I have never played FFII or FFIII, so those will be completely new experiences for me.

The original Final Fantasy holds an awkward place in my journey as a gamer. It was the first RPG I ever played, but I never owned it. My memories of it are vague and hazy since I never played it for very long when it was first released. In fact, I think I played it after encountering what was then Final Fantasy II (IV) and Mystic Quest at my friend Thomas’s house. We considered it even at the time a curio, something pretty basic compared to the sweep of Final Fantasy IV. There’s no plot to speak of, the characters are just blank pages, and NPCs either say nothing or cryptically send you to your next destination. Even Mystic Quest had more to grab the player in terms of its plotting and characterizations, the latter of which has always been the highlight of the series. Indeed, what I missed most from this game was the silliness and humor of later games (something completely missing from the latest game as well).

That said, what strikes me most returning to the game decades after its release is just how playable it remains. The Pixel Remaster’s quality of life additions go some way to easing the modern player into the game. The most important and significant change (beyond the map and auto-battle) is that you now auto-target a new enemy when one is defeated (I assume this was introduced in other re-released before the Pixel Remasters). In the original, if you had targeted an enemy that disappeared you strike the empty space. This actually required quite a bit of strategy that has been lost in the new versions. At the same time, I found the game fairly breezy. I did use a guide to help direct me when I didn’t want to just meander the world looking for the next destination, but there is sufficient signposting that I didn’t have to do so every second. Such wandering was enough to level-up to move through the game without much difficulty (though that did make me wonder if the difficulty had been turned down in this edition). It’s no wonder this game became a template not only for its series, but an entire genre. 35 years later it’s still perfectly enjoyable to play.

Spoilers, such as they are, after the break.

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My 2024 Reading List

One of my resolutions last year was to just read more for pleasure and indeed fiction proved one of my most joyful escapes in what was a pretty rough year. I kept things fairly light, with a lot of genre fiction I had been meaning to get to for a while now (I have the long running goal of reading all the Hugo Award winners). I think I had wanted to read a couple dozen books and I got close. If we count Moon Witch, Spider King as a few books considering the length, I think I can say I achieved my goal.

Here’s my list of books I read (not counting any for work), with some scattered thoughts.

  1. Nettle and Bone by T. Kingfisher – My hot take is that while the shenanigans around Babel at the 2023 Hugo Awards was deplorable, the better book actually won.
  2. Network Effect by Martha Wells – How many series just get better and better?
  3. Orlando: A Biography by Virginia Woolf – Finally knocked this one off my to-read list and am looking forward to watching the Tilda Swinton adaptation this year.
  4. Pietre le Letton by Georges Simenon – First in a couple of old-school mysteries I read this year.
  5. The Big Sleep by Raymond Chandler – The second
  6. Number Go Up by Zeke Faux – I normally avoid pop history/reporting turned into books, but this was a funny, lucid explanation of the bs behind crypto.
  7. Red Team Blues by Cory Doctorow
  8. Count Zero by William Gibson – Will finish this trilogy this year.
  9. Tripping on Utopia: Margaret Mead, the Cold War, and the Troubled Birth of Psychadelic Science by Benjamin Breen – I blogged about this one.
  10. Stand on Zanzibar by John Brunner
  11. To Your Scattered Bodies Go by Philip José Farmer
  12. Everyone Knows Your Mother is a Witch by Gretch Rivka – The best historical fiction I’ve read in a good while.
  13. Just Kids by Patti Smith – As memorable as everyone said it would be
  14. The Deep Sky by Yume Kitasei
  15. Tomorrow and Tomorrow and Tomorrow by Gabrielle Zevin – Entertaining, but my gamer brain kept telling me that the central creation of the story couldn’t have been made before the Indie game surge of the 2000s.
  16. The Kamogawa Food Detectives by Hsashi Kashiwai – Made me so hungry.
  17. Moon Witch, Spider King by Marlon James
  18. Near Strangers by Marian Crotty
  19. Slouching Toward Bethlehem by Joan Didion
  20. The Talented Mr. Ripley by Patricia Highsmith

Paris and the Public Urinal

The “Homewood Privy, c . 1801,” Johns Hopkins University Homewood Campus, Personal Photograph.

One of my ongoing academic obsessions, since they were the subject of my very first publication, is the history of public urinals. I even got to help out with a memorial plaque that’s going up in Paris at one of the last remaining pissotières in the city (not sure if it’s up yet). I can’t help but notice them, especially historic ones like the one on Johns Hopkins’s campus in Baltimore pictured above, when wandering around a city. But also when they pop up elsewhere. Right now I’m reading Patricia Highsmiths’s The Talented Mr. Ripley for the first time and when Tom first goes to Paris he describes what he first notices:

It was the atmosphere of the city that he loved, the atmosphere that he had always heard about, crooked streets, gray-fronted houses with skylights, noisy car horns, and everywhere public urinals and columns with brightly colored theater notices on them.

The public urinal indelibly marked the city, here as one part of its very modernity. The Talented Mr. Ripley first appeared in 1955; by the 1980s, the classic pissotières were removed in favor of the self-cleaning (and pretty gross) facilities that now dot the Parisian landscape.

They Rule Our World

On my flight back from the annual meeting of the Western Society for French History, I was seated next to a woman who struck me as the quintessential representative of San Francisco. I didn’t quite catch all the details, but needless to say she is quite wealthy and lives near Jack Dorsey, runs a foundation, is involved in multimillion dollar research and charitable endeavors, and is quite enthusiastic about both spiritualism and the possibilities of AI. Some of my least favorite words — “influencer,” “thought leader” — were used un-ironically. She was very nice and, though I am not someone who wants to chat with strangers on a plane, seemed genuinely interested in my work and my experience in San Francisco. But she also expressed surprise when I described as “creepy” the idea of putting my research into an AI chatbot so that readers might have a “conversation” with AI-me, the implication being that I was this weird luddite behind the times. The confidence she expressed not only that this kind of tech was the future, but that it could be harnessed by her and her cohort to solve both our material and our spiritual problems typified what I know of the world of Silicon Valley and especially its current role in our politics.

I was reminded of my chat after reading a recent article in The Atlantic that was going around Bluesky on various issues facing Business school research. The article focuses on the aftermath of the discovery that a major figure in the world of business psychology had used fraudulent data in their research. With a subject that read, “The rot runs deeper than almost anyone has guessed,” my initial impulse was to just quip “I could have guessed” and move on. To anyone with a passing familiarity with the difficulties and problems of behavioral psychology general and with business schools specifically (or just listeners to If Books Could Kill), the idea that much of the conclusions of this world are often, to be generous, a bit suspect is not that surprising.

One of the research conclusions that the Atlantic article describes as now being put into question is that doing a small routine (or “ritual”) before a presentation can help the performance of the presentation. As the Atlantic documents, though this idea is regularly cited in the literature, the data underpinning it has now been shown to have been manipulated.

When I got this part of the article, I came up a bit short. That’s because of the things my airplane neighbor told me — and that she suggested should be spread far and wide — was that research showed that teachers who did just a small act of meditation or reflection every day before entering the classroom showed huge gains in the classroom. Students who had teachers who did this, she told me, had their GPAs rise by something like two points.

Obviously, this doesn’t exactly sound right! But it’s the kind of “life hack” — as the Atlantic terms it — that is so central to these kinds of studies, ones we now know to be not only empirically suspect, but also often rest on fraud. And here’s the thing, the people who believe it, like this philanthropist, are the ones with the money, means, and ability to shape our world. They are the ones making solutions — she was on her way to pitch San Francisco as the site of a major study on homelessness — that rest on essentially made-up conclusions. The story, it seems to me, is not simply that these fields need, like their peers in Psychology, to take enact methodological reform and to rethink their research incentives, but the influence the simple answers they provide hold over policymakers and others with widespread influence over our society. We’re about to see this at its most extreme with Musk and Ramaswamy, but its not as if Democrats are immune. The model described in the Atlantic quite literally rules our world.

New Article: Josephine Butler in Paris

I’ve been working on an article examining Josephine Butler’s campaign against morals policing in Paris for quite a while now and it’s finally out. This article, the first published section of my new book project, explores how Butler’s advocacy against regulated prostitution shaped and was shaped by her time in Paris during the 1870s. It attempts to connect her arguments against regulated prostitution to a nascent critique of policing in democratic society more broadly, while also highlighting her indebtedness to a multivalent discourse around race in the early Third Republic.

Please feel free to reach out if you would like a copy of the article and are not able to access it via the link above.

Digital Exhibits on “Gender, Race, and Class in Modern Europe”

The last time I used WordPress for an assignment was in my old job at the University of Southern Mississippi where I taught a course I called “History in the Digital Age.” I decided to try to incorporate the use of WordPress for a simple digital exhibit into a more traditional course this semester, “Gender, Race, and Class in Modern Europe.” This majors-level course covered selected themes in European history through the perspective of marginalized peoples, primarily as it related to changing definitions of citizenship. I needed an assignment that incorporated independent research and writing, but I did not want to assign a standard paper. This was mostly just to vary things for my students, many of whom had already taken a course with me where a standard research paper was the assignment. I also think that basic knowledge of WordPress is a useful skill for everyone to have.

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Who needs to refrain from violence?

Just in awe at the tension evident in this Washington Post article on the recent move by police forces across the country against pro-Palestinian encampments on university campuses (the screenshot is from my iPad and the article may look different by now or on a different app):

Yes, campus protestors should be non-violent, but in this list it’s police, police, police, police, police, and counterprotestors actually causing it. That administrators can’t see that listening to the students, letting them protest, take the consequences (most of which would be academic), and then letting them leave for the summer isn’t the best call here is just baffling. I haven’t read one article where its the actual encampments causing the violence, whatever other policies they may be violating. Calling the police to brutalize your own students is not just counterproductive, but heinous. Shame on all of them.

The Science of Utopia?

Book cover of Tripping on Utopia

I just finished reading Benjamin Breen’s Tripping on Utopia for my book club. This was one of those nice instances where I got to read some history for pleasure. The book was pretty much perfect for this kind of exercise. Breen is an excellent narrator and he makes the story truly compelling even as it goes into a great deal of detail and includes a dizzying array of people who were involved in psychedelic research around Margaret Mead’s circle. The book argues that Margaret Mead and many of those around here — notably her one-time husband Gregory Bateson — saw psychedelics as one path toward a new world order based on expanding human consciousness so to bring the world closer together. They meant this both as an ideology — respect and appreciation for cultural difference was at the center of their belief system — and as practice — they once argued for a world government in order to do away with nationalism (72-79). Mead rested these hopes, Breen argues, on a faith in science.

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The Professor’s Bookshelf

I was asked to participate in an article for Loyola’s student newspaper on books that shaped me. The full article has some great reads (and some questionable ones, I admit). They didn’t include my full explanations of my choices, so here they are:

Orientalism by Edward Said: This was my introduction to critical theory and to the concept of social construction and has influenced me ever since I read it in college. It gave me a new way of understanding power and our place in the world. 

The Lord of the Rings by J.R.R. Tolkien: Probably the book I’ve re-read the most; I never regret entering into Tolkien’s world.

Gay New York by George Chauncey: Another college read, this book introduced me to queer history and helped launch me into my own career.

The Left Hand of Darkness by Ursula K. Leguin: This was actually the Humanities Symposium text from a few years ago. A classic science fiction tale that also helped me better understand the malleability of sex and gender.

The Epistemology of the Closet by Eve Kosofsky Sedgewick: An essential introduction to the way heterosexist society creates cycles of shame and enforces silence (while also declaring that we don’t need to hear “it”), this foundational work of queer theory is also an interrogation into the queer subtext (and text) of novels I also love (like Billy Budd and In Search of Lost Time).

Currently Reading

Got more books on my mind than usual these days. Some initial thoughts:

Tripping on Utopia: Margaret Mead, the Cold War, and the Troubled Birth of Psychedelic Science by Benjamin Breen: This one is for my book club and I’m finding it fascinating. I confess I knew very little about Margaret Mead beyond the basics. I’m about a third of the way through this (extremely well-written) book and am finding the ways her humanistic anthropology led her not only to the idea that psychedelics might expand our ability to connect to one another, but also to working directly with the CIA to be fascinating and delightfully in tension with one another. So many people enter the orbit of Mead and her cohort you basically come away reading a chapter of this book thinking Breen has found an entry point to explaining the whole of American society during the decades he covers.

Stand on Zanzibar by John Brunner: I’m very far into a years (maybe decades) long project of reading all the Hugo winners for best novel. This quest continues despite the recent controversies (Babel absolutely should have been nominated, but the winner, Nettle and Bone by T. Kingfisher was the better book). I’m only a couple chapters into this one, but the introduction to the edition I got from my awesome local library served as a warning when it referenced Georges Perec as an influence. I will finish this, but the postmodern conceits are strong in this one.

Playing Cleopatra: Inventing the Female Celebrity in Third Republic France by Holly Grout: I’m just about done with Holly Grout’s new book on Sarah Bernhardt, Collette, and Josephine Baker’s relationship to Cleopatra. This might be considered a “work” book that I picked up in order to draft a chapter of an edited volume I am working on, but it hasn’t been as relevant as I had hoped. That said, the book is an excellent companion to Grout’s first book on beauty and effectively showcases the ways that these three actors put on display and mixed up the sexual and racial politics of the Third Republic.